My absence
February 02, 2005
An absence that has been noticed I’m sure. My last few posts were reserves I’ve saved up for just when I don’t feel like writing yet don’t want my blog to go barren. So when I’m suddenly fiending to write, I won’t fight this addiction.
This month has been hell.
Mostly, I attribute it to work. Work has been hell. Not only has it been uncharacteristically busy, things have happened beyond our control that has made work even worse. Ever get the feeling that you’re being squeezed for every ounce of worth? Yeah, that’s work. When you’re in a position to motivate others when you’re so unmotivated, guess what, the others aren’t going to get anywhere, anytime soon. Although there have been some changes lately, it’s not just these minor changes that have made everyone feel like this. It’s a lot of pent up frustration at those holed up in the ivory tower.
I’ve also worked 10 out of 11 days straight. I didn’t get a weekend because I’m covering two friends. They’re covering me this weekend. I’m guessing a lot of what I’ve felt came from this very long stretch of all-work-no-play.
Why did I do it? Well, the woman and I are going to visit Hong Kong for a few days. I haven’t been there in a decade! It wasn’t my first choice as a travel destination but the woman really wants to see it for some reason. I’m just looking forward to NOT working and NOT thinking about work and NOT thinking about how so much stuff sucks at work.
I’m hoping in time this will all fade or else I’ll have to either deal with it or move on. Who fucking knows.
