5 Years
December 12, 2004
Sadly, I’m manually inputting the old updates I have that preceded the days of blogger. I’m too lazy to look for a way to quickly transfer them all but I’m not too lazy to copy and paste all five million entries. It gives me a good chance to read through some of my first attempts at general blogging.
It’s only been five years but in these five years I think I’ve changed quite a lot. My emotional maturity definitely increased. In 1999, I tended to ramble on about school, Quake 3, and bad weather patterns. In retrospect, 1999 was a rather turbulent year with many changes. School definitely took up a lot of my focus but at the same time, things with friends at the time also drained a lot out of me too. I think my writing then (as unfocussed and neurotic as it sounded) was an outlet to vent some of that pent up ‘anger’.
I noticed I said a lot of things that I don’t agree with anymore now. Had I known that one day I wouldn’t think the same way, I would’ve avoided it. But, at the age of 19, I thought I was invincible and that I would never change. What a little child I was. I don’t regret writing it because it was genuinely how I felt. In fact, I wish I had elaborated more on how I truly felt about certain topics. There were some details back then that would’ve helped me put ends to some issues I’m still wrestling with now. I bet I avoided them then because I was too scared.
It’s very interesting to read through your own writing, five years later.
