5ive
October 03, 2003
Fifth day of cold turkey no smoking and still going strong. Yesterday was tough. I was in the same cafe for three hours studying Japanese and talking with my language exchange gal. During these three hours, scores of people sat beside me, in front of me, diagonally across, under, above, in, on, against, and even inversely of me. All these people were lighting up and blowing in my face the whole time.
I told you I had a cough and I think I made one girl feel bad. Everytime she was smoking a cigarette, I simultaneously had coughing fits. The two were unrelated, my coughs are caused by mucus in the trachea. It just so happened the mucus was annoying me right as she had her cigarettes. Everytime I coughed, she would tilt her body away and try to wave the smoke away from me. It’s a smoking fact that smoke will head the to person who hates it the most so all her efforts were in vain. Even though she may have been feeling bad, she still had I think four cigarettes with her one small cup of coffee. What a bitch huh?
There are three situations which will trigger my smoking urges:
- Work – most of the people I talk to are smokers
- Restaurants/Establishments – many people liberally smoke and I have sit and watch them
- Being with my girlfriend – she smokes but luckily not a lot
I’ve shown to myself that I can refrain from smoking in situations 1 and 2 (1 being the hardest as I spend most of my time there and I have 8 chances to smoke in one work day). Situation 3 will be the hardest I think. I see myself being the weakest while sitting at the dinner table with a cigarette vending machine right beside me and Eri lights one up.
Agh. Must be strong for… world peace. I do believe that if I quit smoking, starving children around the world will never be hungry and become well educated and literate. Gotta do it for the children…
