It Is Up - Almost Four Years of Writing
July 16, 2003
It took almost 3 hours today after work to finish it up but at long last, it’s all done. All the internal links have been killed but the externals have been left untouched. Most of them probably don’t work. Reading so much of the past really brought me back. One update in particular really struck me and so I’d like to write about it in terms of my current state. Reading back about my life also slightly reflects other people’s lives so if you’re someone I talk about and you’re not ready to read about something that may be different now, beware.
My Life In A Nutshell II
This update is a follow up of the May 30, 2000 update titled, “My Life In A Nutshell”. In this update more than three years ago, I confessed my unhappiness at the world and at myself. I talked about a redesign of my life and of myself, the lack of love, and also the lack of motivation.
Looking at myself today, three years, two months, and 15 days later, I’m glad to say that all the things I lacked at the time are now filled with great things. =)
I truly believe that I am at my happiest time ever and I’ve had some pretty damn good times.
I am happy about myself and my achievements. I look at my failures and underperformances now as opportunities (like this slight excess of fat around my Spartan waist).
I think the redesign of my life was complete a long time ago and now I am collecting the fruits of the changes.
I now am filled with love thanks to a special woman whom I’d follow to the darkest reaches of hell (much less a foreign country).
I am now motivated by a sense of purpose that extends far past monetary gain, power, or fame. These empty goals once drove me. Now I am more.
One thing that’s still the same though is the last part - I still don’t think I’m an normal, average person. I’m still beyond.
