Quarter Life Crisis
February 13, 2003
Here I am on a Thursday afternoon waiting for a student to show up for a lesson. She will not show up. As a result, I now write this update to be blogged on later today. It’s kind of like a time capsule in a sad, boring way.
Reading Dennis’ update got me thinking about what I want in the next years ahead. Having a meaningless, non-technical degree severely limits my options. Firstly, my marks are nowhere near the level needed to score an accounting job. I’ve tried scores of firms, from mega-size to mom ‘n’ pop partnerships. I thought I had secured a position last year because the dude invited me up to the office for a tour and you don’t do that to people you don’t hire. Alas, no callback so screw him. A possibility would be to venture to Hong Kong or mainland China to see what accounting positions are available but I really don’t want to.
The truth is that accounting does not interest me. That may explain my lacklustre marks in my core accounting classes while I pull A’s in my other more ‘general business’ courses. I have come to a conclusion that I don’t want to apply myself to one area of business but instead to smear myself across the whole spectrum.
This makes starting my own business very appealing as I would be on my hands and knees doing the dirty work and at the same time reap the rewards (less taxes of course). The big problems here are of course I have no practical business experience and I have no idea what business to dive into.
I really don’t want a 9-5 job to eat my life away because it just won’t be worth it, no matter what the latest bonus plan or shiny incentive may be. I am sea-green with envy when I see people doing what they love and also doing something for their community or even this world. Unfortunately for me, there isn’t anyone around who will pay me to do the things I love.
Still life goes on with or without me and in the end: I choose to live it, for better or for worse.
