Blargh Blargh
November 15, 2001
Today was dizzying. I crawled out of bed after only sleeping 6 hours and angrily got ready for school. Bad Mood. On the half hour drive to school, I was listening to a really wise person speak about his career as a funeral preparer or something (taped chinese ghost show on the radio). He was really wise and kind and the things he said about being a good person really reached out to me. Good mood. I had my strategic management class. Good mood. I had my financial statement analysis class. Bad mood. Audit class. No change in mood. I stop by at work and play some games. Good mood. Go to group meeting after. No change. Drive back home. Bad mood.
My marks are crap, even by my standards. I don’t understand why. I’m studying as much as before, the material isn’t that much harder, and I do care about these marks. But it’s all crap. I don’t care if I expect bad marks because I didn’t study or whatever, but the sad thing is, I really thought I did ok. Nope. Denied I is. Me thinks on a subconsious level, I know I won’t be in accounting so studying accounting right now is a waste of time. I think so
Oh well. I did finish that puzzle. Only 6 days! I haven’t finished a puzzle by myself in over 15 years I think. Sad as it sounds, it sure beats going out. I don’t like going out anymore at all. It’s boring. It’s costly. It’s not with Eri. So I prefer to stay home.
I’m boiling with negativity right now. I will take it out through punches and kicks now. Bye.
